Archive for September, 2010

What Are We Looking At?

For myself and other women to think about….

Last week I studied Genesis 34. It is a very tragic account of a young  girl being raped, held captive, and then the vengeance that her brothers took out upon the man who acted so vile, but also upon the whole city in which he lived.

As I thought upon this passage this week, I kept coming back to the very first verse and felt the Holy Spirit tuning my heart in to what He was saying.

” Now Dinah the daughter of Leah, whom she had borne to Jacob, went out to see the women of the land.” (Italics mine)

I am very prone to wander in my focus on what God has planned for me. I get pulled towards comparing myself to other women. Women who mostly do not know the Lord Jesus and whom live their lives trying to gain the approval of others. They set the standards for appearance, weight, makeup, fashion, character, and relationships. They seem to have quite the following even among those of us who do belong to Christ.

I am bothered often by the reality of  my flesh being pulled to imitate these women who in all reality are empty.

The story of Dinah gave the Lord such a clear opportunity to speak some truths into my life.

#1. What I am looking at, I will go after.

#2. When I leave the safety of my Father’s ways, I leave myself open to the violation of the enemy.

#3. I can always return to my Father and He will restore me unto Himself.

We do not know how Dinah lived out the rest of her life. We do not know if she ever received the healing she so needed to receive. But I learned a powerful lesson with this passage… I want to focus on what the Lord has for me, not what the world and the prince of it, have to offer.

1 Peter 3:2… when they see your respectful and pure conduct. 3 Do not let your adorning be external—the braiding of hair and the putting on of gold jewelry, or the clothing you wear— 4 but let your adorning be the hidden person of the heart with the imperishable beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which in God’s sight is very precious.


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Shunning Grace


Hello my friend, lean close

I am about to tell you a story

Please don’t walk away

This is how the story goes;


One morning as the sky turned from black to gray

I stood looking into the large mirror

That hung in my hallway.


As I looked I saw what my eyes wanted to see

My hair all in place, my clothing all just right,

Standing tall, well to me

I was quite the sight!


I turned and started down the hall

Not seeing my shadow was not so tall


I fixed my breakfast

Headed out the door

Not seeing I had left my mess behind me

There were crumbs on the floor.


I listened to the radio on my way to work

Marveling at others stupidity

Shaking my head, my mouth holding a  smirk.

Walking down my office hallway

I noticed nothing but everyone’s

Filth and sloppiness that day.


I tried to deal with the work on my desk

But all I could see is

The grossness of everyone’s mess.


I knew no one wanted to listen to what I would say

So, I shook my head, and dreamed of the day.


The day when everything would be made “just right.”

When others would see their messes

And keep them out of sight!


Why could people not see how they should act and be?

I could not understand…

After all, they had me.


I went home that day

Listening to the radio

Smirking all the way.


I walked through my front door

Down the hallway

Stepping past the grand mirror

And of course the crumbs on the floor.


Went into my room

Took off my nice clothes

Refreshed my makeup

Striking a pose.


Walking back down the hall

I heard something strange

The mirror seemed to be calling

Yes, calling my name.


I stepped up in front and gasped at what I saw!

My hair out of place, my face beaten and old

My clothing, looking like nothing but dried up straw!


My mirror asked,

“Can I tell you my name?

Nodding my head

As no words came.


“ My name is Grace.

Every morning you stand in front of me

Not seeing the true picture

Not seeing reality.


You see what you want to see

You keep me in my “place”

Never hearing the truth

You walk away shunning grace.


The grace I desire to you to see

To hold, to love

Oh my dear, to become your reality.


Every evening you walk past me in stride

Never knowing that I can tell you

What is wrong, what is inside.


You seem to be content with the outside of you

Not seeing the filth, the grossness

That I could make new.


Oh  my dear if you would but receive

This grace I now offer

This truth you now see

There would be no need to be such a scoffer.


I am holding out my truth to you.

Please oh please don’t shun me now!

Let me make your heart brand new!

On your ugliness, my grace endow!”


I knelt on the floor

My voice broken and weak

Crying at what I saw, yes

But truly at the words she did speak.


I finally saw what I needed the most

What I truly looked like

Having nothing to boast.


“Yes, please give me your grace

Never let me be the same!

Thank you Grace for calling my name!”

James 1: 23 For if anyone is a hearer of the word and not a doer, he is like a man who looks intently at his natural face in a mirror. 24 For he looks at himself and goes away and at once forgets what he was like. 25 But the one who looks into the perfect law, the law of liberty, and perseveres, being no hearer who forgets but a doer who acts, he will be blessed in his doing.



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I am reblogging this! Loved the word from it again!

The Pearl Of Great Price   Sitting on the beach one warm and sunny day, Watching the tides come in and go out. I was not in the mood to talk, Just wanting to pout.  To say I was down in my spirit, Would not have been in extreme. I was so down, feeling as if I had no one on which to lean.   Life just wasn’t fair I thought, Why the pain? Within myself I fought .   I watched the ocean, So big, so blue, Thinking, I don’t have a chance, And really, neither do you.   At first … Read More

via My Journey To the Heart of God.

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Are YOU For REAL?!

Do you ever feel like asking that question? Have you ever been asked that question?

I have sure felt like asking it lately to some people. I am sure there are some who would also like to ask it to me… go ahead…its ok.

Ok… now for the reason I am writing this… I have been pondering on words like honesty, truthfulness, integrity, the past few weeks and I just gotta get something off my chest.

But first you need to know that I love my church family. I love the body of Christ. Truly.

But, with that said, I have to say we are some of the BIGGEST  FAKERS ( yes I am making it a word.)  out there! I have heard people criticized all my life for talking about the people who go to church and calling us “hypocrites”. But, you know what? We are.

What makes us this way? Kind of goes back to the lies I talked about last time…

See we think that if we are real and honest then we won’t be heard. We think we have fooled everyone around us and they really do think we are perfect, have perfect home lifes, a perfect walk with God and so on… shoot, we may have even fooled ourselves! I know that I went through at least 13 years looking at myself in the mirror and lying…

But, what happens truly when we leave the church? What goes on in the four walls of our home? Do we live out what we want others to think we live out?

Psalm 101: 2 “I will ponder the way that is blameless.
Oh when will you come to me?
I will walk with integrity of heart
within my house.”

Did you catch that last sentence? I hear a lot of “winning the world to Christ” or “witnessing to the lost”, but if we are not truly real with those INSIDE our own house how can we really have much to stand on?

I know many people who have somehow bought into the lie that they can be different people at home than they are at church and its ok… what they don’t seem to realize is that their children see right through them.

Last night we were playing a game sitting at our dining room table and one of my children acted ugly to another. This child is what we call a “people person”, loving to love and be loved by people. I was quickly reminded of the verse above and gave a short sermon on being “real”. “Being the same way inside our home as they are around others. Don’t boast of being a servant if you don’t serve your spouse. Don’t boast of being a giver if you won’t give to your family. Don’t boast about being anything that those who know you best (if they were truly honest), would argue with.”

Can we quit giving the people reason to say we are hypocrites? Can we quit hiding the things that He has delivered us from? Can we truly be REAL?

On a last note… after reading something my younger sister wrote this morning, the thought came to me…”We cannot expect our children to be honest about their lives with us, if we are not honest about our with them.”, but that really truly goes for everyone….

Its ok… you can be” for real”.

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Exposing Some Of The Lies

I am sick of bondage to sin. If nothing else made me homesick for heaven than fighting the draw to sin and having to watch others do the same would surely do the trick!

I am talking about sin in the lives of people who know Jesus. YES, we all still struggle with sin every day every hour sometimes… We are not immune to its pull and we are not immune to the consequences of falling. One of the hardest things for me to deal with are the people within the body who claim that when we are saved we do not sin…or at some point the draw of sin will cease in the Christians life. Let me tell you, THAT is not true. They know even as they are saying it that it isn’t true…

I am not really sure why they say it other than they want to believe it themselves perhaps. Perhaps they think if we just got real with people then “our testimony” would be ruined. Perhaps they have forgotten it is HIS testimony that is at stake and if people need anything right now they need Christians to QUIT lying and tear off their hypocritical mask!

See, this is what happens…

1. Someone is tempted to sin.   

     Since we have taught that temptation itself is a sin, they automatically feel condemned.

2. They fall into sin.

    They may start doubting their salvation because after all, saved people don’t sin…at least not like this….(Right?)

3. They stay in the prison of that sin.

    WHY??? Do we really need to ask that question? The answer is obvious. Because they believe that Christians will condemn them and they will not be able to overcome the shame.

Sometimes there is a step 4…looks something like this…

4. They decide they can’t live with it anymore and they seek help.

       They tell someone they respect and in turn everything they feared would happen, DOES happen and they find themselves in a stronger and deeper pit of sin than before….

Let me tell you what the Word says step 4 should look like…

4. They decide they can’t live with it anymore and seek help.

     Psalm 142:7 Bring me out of prison, that I may give thanks to your name! The righteous will surround me, for you will deal bountifully with me.

That “surround” in this verse is not the type that we see in cowboy movies where they circle around the building just waiting for the bad guy to come out so they can arrest him… it is the same surround in

Psalm 125:2 As the mountains surround Jerusalem, so the LORD surrounds his people, from this time forth and forevermore.

We wonder why so many people are caught in their sin, we wonder why they act the way they do, never seeing ourselves, never exposing ourselves. After all, we have believed the lie too…

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In Everything?

I just finished reading another person’s blog about the hurricane damage that they suffered 2 years ago today.  I looked at the pictures with a lump in my throat and tears in my eyes. The story told of a young mother trying to get her three young kids out of their home and up an unstable hill while hurricane winds and rain are against them the whole way. Can you imagine? Anytime I hear of a disaster coming or predicted to come, it causes fear inside of me for my kids.

Will they be with me?

Will they listen to me?

Will we all make it out ok?

These are just a few of the questions that bring anxiety to my heart.

My husband and I are dealing with something right now that brings anxiety. Concern for another family member who seems to be moving farther from God and anyone who truly is concerned for their spiritual state. Circumstances seem chaotic, mind-boggling, and just plain weird concerning this individual and the people that they are depending on.

As I was thinking about this issue and reading the previously mentioned blog, the verse came to me I Thess 5:18 “Give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.”

HUH? In ALL circumstances? Surely not. Our pastor says something that this household has started repeating… “all means all and that’s all all means.”

So, yes, ALL circumstances. UGH! That is hard for me! I want to scream out my frustration to this person and the one who is enabling them… give thanks. I want to tell them exactly just how dumb I think their most recent decision is… give thanks. I want… “Deanna, give thanks.

Ok. I get the message but LORD, this one is hard! I choose to give thanks because You tell me too, You tell me that no matter how strong the wind and rain is right now, You are not caught off guard. You tell me that I can trust You…. In everything? Yes. In everything.

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The Living Word

This morning was just like most others.

Alarm went off, eyes opened

But, I wanted to stay under the covers.


My mind woke up slowly, not liking the hour,

Wanting more sleep, more rest

Wondering why mornings have to be so sour?


Made myself get out of bed

Brushed my teeth

Still quite foggy in my head.


My sweet man had already poured me a cup

Of the coffee he made

Since he had more discipline to “get on up.”


Sat down in “my spot”.

Now, this is where “it” changes,

Opened the Word, and sleep I forgot.


Your Word is like no other book!

Speaking comfort to my heart,

I find no greater moment,

Then when it comes off of the page that I do look!


This morning has changed for me,

And only You know why.

You had an appointed time

To let the comfort fly.


Straight to my spirit man

These words did speak

“He is faithful Who has promised.”

Even when my trust is weak.


Thank You for the sweet and living Word.

Sometimes a comfort,

Sometimes a Sword.


But, it’s all for Your glory.

Use it to change me, Lord.

For on it today I lean,

I am trusting in You, Your Word.

Hebrews 10:23 Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for he who promised is faithful.

Hebrews 11:11 By faith Sarah herself received power to conceive, even when she was past the age, since she considered him faithful who had promised.


By Nekoda Derouen Gott

Copyright 2010 Deanna Gott

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