Sunday morning my husband and I were sitting close beside each other during church, our pastor was preaching about the need for contentment out of 1Timothy, excellent sermon, I might add. As I was reading along with him the chosen passage, my eyes caught the following verse on the opposite side of my bible.
1Timothy 5:6 “but she who is self-indulgent is dead even while she lives.”
At first I felt the sting of it, and then I turned to Tony and pointed at it, I said, “Ouch, that one has a punch to it. ”
I am not keen on dead things. I don’t like the mess, I don’t like the smell, I don’t like the look, pretty much nothing appeals to me about dead things. But, here we have a verse that is focused on the indulgence of women and it tells me that if I indulge my self, I am dead even though I have life in my body. Not that God doesn’t know men indulge too, but I choose to take it to heart that He is speaking about women.
There has been something that God has been telling me for a while to put aside. Lets say I was “indulging” a little too much. Nothing that is sinful, nothing that is bad even, just easily distracting. I have put off the feeling of conviction, and reasoned that it must not be Him telling me this because it can be used for His glory. But, He was and is very persistent.
So, Monday morning again I came across this conviction, and surrendered. I don’t know for how long I will set this thing aside, I am dependent on my Father to tell me, but, it has been a good two days.
This morning as I was running, I had a song by Broken Vessels titled “HE IS RISEN” come up. This song is an awesome song about the resurrection of Christ but God used it to remind me of the punchy scripture. These words are in the chorus, “Why do you look for the living among the dead?” The Lord quickened me and I started thinking about how we as women are drawn to indulging ourselves, looking for life among the deadness of the world. We look at others either in the media, hollywood, or even in our church who look like they have life because they are wearing a mask and yet we refuse to look to HIM! See, the line in the song goes like this, “Why do you look for the living among the dead? He is risen! He is risen!”
Deanna must learn to lay aside all self indulgences and look for life from the One who is Life! I don’t want to be dead, looking for life in the things and ways of the world. May I truly live, looking to Him to meet every need I have!